Despite of everything...

"iwan mo man ako o hindi, hindi ka magiging masama para saken"

[TAGALOG] Bakiiit?

Bakit ganun, pag stressed na ako, wala akong ibang gustong gawin kundi umiyak na lang. Ugghhh. Naiiyak ako ngayon. Una, dahil sa research. Ang dami pa naming kelangan tapusin dun. Ilang beses pa ata namin kelangan bumalik ng Amadeo. Ilang fucking excuses sa klase pa kelangan ko ha? Hirap na nga ako pag nae-excuse eh putek. Pangalawa, kelangan magmemorize sa putek na play na yan. Kelangan pa ng putek na costume. Pero dahil wala na akong damit, putek na yan, wala akong damit! bwiset kasi ha, puro dress po kasi pinapabili sa akin. letse! Kelangan ko pa mag-aral sa Biotech. Bahala na. Bagsak na kung bagsak fuckin. OH ANO?! MASAYA NA KAYONG BABAGSAK AKO NGAYON HA?! DI NA AKO MAGTATAKA KUNG BIGLA AKONG HIMATAYIN DITO DAHIL SA SOBRA SOBRANG PUTEK NA PAGOD AKO KANINA BWISET. TAGAYTAY PA BA NAMAN LETSE WALA NA NGA AKONG PERA EH. SORRY GROUPMATES KO SA RESEARCH, HINDI AKO GALIT SA INYO OKAY. FUCKING LANG TALAGA. SO AYUN. MAY BIGLA AKONG NAALALA. NADAGDAGAN NA NAMAN ANG SANDAMUNGKAL KONG PROBLEMAAAAAA. YUNG FUCKING SURVEYS PA NGA PALA. NICE DIBA? SORRY ALL CAPS NA. NAIINIS NA TALAGA AKO AYOKO NA. BAKA KONTI NA LANG EH SUMUKO NA RIN AKO.

What a productive night!

Waaa. It's a great feeling that I just did homeworks and school works today, and spent a lot less time in Facebook and Twitter. :))) It feels so nice. Waa. How I wish I do this everyday. I hope all my hardships would pay off tomorrow. And yeah, I hope the report I have made in Chemistry is correct. Still, Chemistry is a NO NO for me :( Sorry.

[Tagalog] Woooo.

Ang sarap pala ng feeling na disciplined ka sa sarili mo. Yung feeling na gumagawa ka muna ng homeworks bago magFacebook, Twitter, at magspazz.Pinipigilan ko talaga sarili ko na kahit magpatugtog man lang ng KPOP habang gumagawa ng assignment. Ayaw ko rin madaliin ang sarili ko sa paggawa. At syempre, mas maganda yung nasisimulan ng maaga para maaga rin akong matapos at makatulog ng maaga. Ite-train ko na rin ang sarili ko na matulog ng mas maaga, at kumain ng normal. Gusto ko na ng healthy living. Gusto ko na ng matinong buhay. Waaaa. Sana tumagal 'to. Sana ganito ako araw-araw. Please people, motivate me to study more.

Hehe.

Because of being too depressed with my studies, I asked my mother to buy me Memo Plus Gold again. I've tried that already last year but I was only able to finish one box and didn't continue to buy anymore. I think it's a bit effective(?). I am not sure because I wasn't able to continue taking it for a long time. So maybe it is not bad to try it once again. Of course, drinking medicine alone won't make it good already. I will study well,too. Well perhaps I willl try. Sometimes I am not in the mood to study. But I hope, what's happening now would help me realize my bad study habits. I hope this feeling would stay for a long time.

I feel so bad again :'(

I feel like crying. Ughhh. Reason? Studies. Seriously. I am really getting disappointed with myself when I get low marks. I have been thinking that my brain is slowly degrading. I don't know why. I don't feel that I am as smart now compared before. I'm really upset. What if I'll get line of 7 in the card? That would be a shame. I better start being serious with my studies now and ask help from other people so I can easily understand the lessons well. Just like in Physics, I am a bit confused. Especially in Chemistry, wherein I can't even understand a thing. I pity myself. Oh. Also Biotechnology. I get low scores on my quizzes. Wait, that's all sciences right? To tell you honestly, I never liked science. I hate myself. How can I cope up with the lessons well now? Ugghhh. Sorry teachers. Sorry mother. I don't know. Please classmates, help me. :(((( I really want to cry. I always get stressed. Huhu.

Sexy, Free & Single

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ 6JIB!
A few days ago, SM Entertainment released the teaser photos and MV of the 6th jib! Yay! Then just this day, they already released the music video! It was fantastic, I'm telling you! Yea seriously. Our boys did a great job :)) The song was quite addicting. The songs in the album are also awesome. There's this song that they dedicate to their fans, the ELF. It is From U, which is originally A Song For ELF. Yeaa. It was great. The other songs shows more of their vocal skills and they were good too! And another great thing is that Kangin's back! Yes, you heard it right! Korea's No.1 Handsome Guy Kim Youngwoon! :))))

One month

Oh geeeez. Sorry. I've been inactive with blogging. I can't say that I'm busy because actually I have plenty  of time. Well not that plenty. I can't promise that I'll be blogging every day or week. Sometimes I'm just not in the mood to blog things. :)))
So yeah. This is the first time our classes got suspended because of the Low Pressure Area. The rain is not that hard in Maragondon, but the rain never stops. So yeah, we went home during lunch time. Yey!
I was just a bit depressed because I'm getting low scores in Biotech :( The reason? I'm not listening to the reporters :( But why doesn't our teacher care? Hmm.. I promise next time, that I'll be paying attention to my studies more. Ugh.
Hmmm.. What else can I say?
I think that's it. Lol :)