Heyyy

March 1, 2013

Today is the first day of March!! At ilang days na lang.. graduation na namin..at ilang days na lang magkakahiwa-hiwalay na kami. Okay so bago ako magdrama dito ng bonggang-bongga, magkekwento muna ako ng mga nangyari the past days. Dami ko atang hindi naikwento.

Eto muna.. yung sa amin ni Jerome (actually bawal na banggitin pangalan niya eh, bad word na raw yun) WALA NA. Uhm let me say na gag* siya. Lol. Ang kapal ng mukha niya grabe. Siya pa mismo nagsabi sa akin na bumabalik ang pagiging playboy niya. Sht. Tapos ngayon..ayun..meron na nga agad! Jusko. Tapos close friend pa nung ex niya ha. Grabe naman talaga. Actually mejo nakakamove on na talaga ako ngayon dahil sa friends ko na puro masasama ang sinasabi tungkol sa kanya. Ayun. Nasaktan naman talaga ako. Noon lang ako nagmahal ng ganun. Yung mahal na mahal talaga. Grabe. I trusted him, pero anong nangyari? :/ Anyway, buti na lang anjan ang friends ko para sa akin. Nagsorry na nga rin ako sa kanila kasi nagagalit pa ako sa kanila dati eh. Totoo naman pala mga sinasabi nila.. pati ni kuya. Hayyyy.

Yung overnight kina Jam! Sht sobrang saya lang talaga as in!! NagHarlem Shake kami, nagtakutan, nanuod ng Shutter pero nakatulog din naman, nanuod din ng Dead Silence, nagpillow fight!, nagpakavain, kumain ng maanghang na pancit canton, nagtsismisan, kwentuhan…DEFINE MASAYA talaga. Kasama ko nun sina Mimay, Pam, Menggay, Airah, Shynne, Joma, Marius, Ellie, Denzel, at Rexson. Dami namin noh? Sobrang saya talaga hihihi.

Research. Grabe wooo nakapagpabookbind na ako at napirmahan na rin ni Ma’am de Vera ang bookbound papers koooo! Sure graduate na ba? Yiiieee. Wala. Ang hirap kaya kasi talaga. Akala ko hindi ako aabot sa deadline kasi Tuesday eh katatapos ko lang magpaedit. Tapos at that same day, nagprint ako sa statio at nagpapirma na rin sa panelists. Oh diba bongga! The next day, umabsent ako, pumunta kami ng Recto ng mama ko para magpabookbind. Grabehan! Nakakapagod. Haha.

Yung naggGM naman. Ayun. Tinotoo niya nga yung sinabi niya. Ako na nga yung sinunod niya L User daw ako. Pero di ako nagpaapekto kasi di rin naman totoo yun :P

Habang tumatagal, lalo naming nasasabi at napapatunayang masaya kami sa piling ng bawat isa. Sa school, pag magkakasama kami, lagi kaming masaya, hagalpak sa kakatawa, nao-autistic, special kami eh! Pero pag umuuwi ng bahay, biglang nalulungkot, yung mararamdaman mo at mapapasabi ka ng, ‘sana nasa school na lang ulit ako’. Yung para bang uhaw kami sa presence ng bawat isa. WOW. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganitong saya pag kasama mga kaibigan ko, kung gano ko sila namimiss. At close na rin kasi yung boys at girls sa section naming eh, not all pero in general, yes. Masaya sila kasama eh. Hayyy. Mamimiss ko talaga ang pagiging HS student ko, lalo na ang pagiging 4H student at anak ni Ma’am Ligsa. I’ll miss everyone, seriously. 

Today is Thursday.

Ang lungkot ko nga ngayon tae. Shet Valentine's day ba talaga? Lol. Okay wala lang. Kasi naman.... di kami nagkita. Hayy. I have to be understanding. Eh lagi ko naman ginagawa yun.. bakit di pa ako nasanay? Pero seryoso.. naiinis ako kanina sa room pag nakakakita ako ng may hawak na roses, bear, chocolates. peste. bitter ba? Ewan ko. Nakakainis lang. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh tae.
Nagdate naman ako kasama si Mimay at Rexson. Okay na yun. Atleast diba..
Ayuuun. Si Veron. Waaa natutuwa ako sa kanya. Kahapon nga kasi diba wala ako sa school eh may pinasa silang scores. Ayun. Tinulungan ako ni Veron mag-asikaso. Tapos ayos lang sa kanya na matulog ako sa lap niya habang nilalaro niya phone ko. Nung Math din.. may kelangan na scores tapos siya gumawa nung akin. Nung kelangan din ng journal sa Math.. sasamahan niya pa ako kay Zymon para lang manghingi ng photocopy ng journal sa math waaaa. Share din kami lagi sa foods. Siya nga lang ang taong lagi kong nililibre kasi sa totoo lang, minsan lang ako manlibre ng kaibigan. Lol. Eh ewan ko, kay Veron ayos lang sakin. Kambal nga kami eh. Waaaa. I am lucky to have heeeer <3
Tapos nagsayaw nga pala kami. Jusko fail kamo. Pero sabi nila ang cute ko daw at ayos lang naman daw. Hayyy atleast positive yung comments nila. Well.. pwera nga lang sa damit kasi shorts. Ehhhhh bawal sa school. Hahaha okay nevermind. Ayun so hindi rin kami kasama sa top 3 sa DPSA huhuhu.
Mejo nagtampo din ako kay Jhudz nung uwian.. Kasi late na nun. Eh gusto ko na umuwi.. May kasama naman siya.. Ako wala.. Ehh may dumaan nang bus.. marami pa ang pwede sumakay. Eh kaso si Mary Joy yung tinitingnan niya. Hayyy. Sakit na nga ng paa ko eh. Di ako makalakad ng ayos.
Nung uwian.. naghihintay ako ng bus. Ako nakatayo kahit may pwede namang upuan. Sina Joma hindi pa umuuwi. Lumapit sila sakin. Kasama si Marius. Bakit daw wala ako sa mood. Naiiyak nga ako nun eh. Ewan ko ba kainis. Pang-asar pa tanong ni Jose Mari. Bakit daw parang walang dumadalaw sakin ngayon. Shet ang sakit kamo. Hayyyy..Bakit ba kasi ganito :'((( Para tuloy akong loveless.
Mas masaya pa ata ako ng normal na araw lang sa school kesa ngayon.
Tapos may nabasa pa akong comment dun sa isang picture niya na kung san daw date nila ni *insert name ni ex* ANG SAKIT LANG KAINIS

Hayyy

Mejo nawala na rin ako sa mood kanina sa school pa lang.
Parang hindi nila ramdam na mahal ako ni Jerome, iniisip nila na hindi totoo yung nararamdaman sakin ni Jerome una kasi nga malayo siya and pangalawa dahil sa mga nakikita nila.
Hayyy. Ayun. Pero kinausap ko rin naman si Pam at hiningi ko yung opinion niya about dun.
Tapos yung classmates ko naman na boys lalo na si Ellie, lagi na lang akong tinatanong kung bakit daw si Jerome. Ano daw ba meron sya, ano raw ba nagustuhan ko sa kanya. Nakakainis sila.. Or maybe concerned lang talaga kasi hindi nga nila kilala si Jerome?

And..
T.T
Nagsigawan sina mommy at ate dito :(((
Iyak nga ako ng iyak eh. Kasi kung ano ano na hinahagis ni mommy. Buti na lang walang babasagin.
Sinasabi ni mommy na di responsableng ina ate ko. Waaaa.
Nagsigawan sila :(((

I'm baaaaaaaackkkk

Ayun. Dapat kasi hindi ko na talaga 'to bubuksan ulit eh. Naiinis kasi ako. May nakaalam na ba naman ng blog na 'to. :((
Anyway, hindi na rin ako mage-english dito. Hahaha. Kainis eh.
Ang dami nang nangyariiii.
Nabuo ang Dyosasessss ♥ Ako, Veron, Jam, and Mimay.. Grade 4, Grade 5, Grade 6, and Grade 7... Rat, Tiger, Fish, and Monkey. Actually jan sa animals na yan, damay lang kami ni Veron. Hahaha.
Ayun. Mas naging close ako sa kanila plus Rexson na rin. :))
Masaya sila kasama. Share ng problems. Power trip. Ayunn.

Nagpunta ulit siya sa school nung Friday. After 22 fucking days. Grabe sobrang na-miss ko siya. Now, kelan ko kaya ulit siya makikita? Maghihintay na naman ba ako ng sobrang tagal bago ko siya makita ulit? Waaaa :'( Nakakamiss siya sobra. Naalala ko yung kinuwento sa'kin ni Pam kanina.. Sana hindi mangyari sa amin yun. Kasi yung sakanila raw ng ex niya, si Paolo, ayuun. Natutunan niya raw na totoo nga yung 'easy come, easy go'. Ang bilis daw nila nainlove sa isa't isa at ang bilis din natapos ng relasyon nila. Yung tipong sa kanya niya raw naramdaman yung sobrang kilig.. Yung 4 times daw nung kay Trent. Eh ganun din yung nararamdaman ko ngayon sa kanya. Sobrang kilig... tapos ang bilis din namin nainlove sa isa't isa. Ang dami na ring dumaan na problema. Sana naman wag siya magsawa agad. At ako rin sana. Mahal na mahal ko siya e. ♥

Bow.

That night.

December 19..
   Everything was already planned. Christian, Gary, and him went to our school. We all rode a jeepney going home. Okay to sum it all up, we went to Jollibee and he bought a Milo Blast for me :')) We went to our house and everything that happened next was just awesome. I kept on punching him, he was tickling me. We also touch each other's hands. But yeaaaaaaaa. I was just so happy that time. He also wiped my sweat with his handkerchief. IT WAS JUST SO SWEET :') He also kept on touching my face, my chin. We also pinch each other's cheeks!!

And ... for the first time... I said I love you.. personally.. sajdhflaksjdhglakjhg.

THAT WAS ONE MAGICAL NIGHT.

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED...

Let's start with ...

December 5, 2012

 Since Rikki Mae, Airah, Jhudz, and I were already done with our defense... I asked them if we could go to Jollibee and buy Milo Blast (since it's OUR favorite). Shynne went with us. And yeaaah. Something unexpected happened. I didn't know that HE'll go and celebrate with us as well. I  wasn't prepared lol. When we're about to go home, Shynne asked me if HE could accompany me home. I asked if Jhudz can go with us as well. It's okay but, JHUDZ hesitated! Then yeah, I went home riding his motor. I am really scared riding a motor because I am not used to it. But I have trust on HIM, soooo :))) I told my mom and my sister about it. 

December 6, 2012

  We went home late because we attended the talk.. He suddenly texted me and asked if he could accompany me home again riding his motor. I said yes. AND YEAAAAA :))))

December 7, 2012

  This day is something really special. HE went to school with Christian, my grade school friend. At first we were at the canteen. Then a moment later, I felt out of place because they were the only ones who were talking to each other. I walked out and went straight to our room. Luckily, my male classmates and also the guys from other sections went inside our room and they all surrounded me, and talked to me. They were even singing. Atleast they were making me happy that time. They didn't leave me. They stayed until I go home. That was sweet of them :)) Then Joma and Marius went with us to the jeepney, waited with us. When we rode the jeepney, WE sat side by side. We weren't talking to each other. On the other hand, Christian kept laughing because of my other companions who were making jokes. When we get down the jeepney already, we parted ways and it was obvious that HE's not in the mood. HE even ruined his hair. Lol. When I got home, no one was there so I thought that maybe we could talk to each other for even just a few minutes because I really felt guilty that time. I asked my mom first if it's okay to talk to him. Surprisingly, my mom agreed. It was shocking because my mom usually doesn't allow me.And it was my first time asking my mom a question like that. HE really went to our house but we just stayed outside since it would be suspicious if we were the only ones inside our house. We talked and talked and talked. It took us one hour. Then my mother and my sister even reached us talking. Lol. T WAS REALLY A MOMENT TO REMEMBER :)) For the first time, I felt comfortable talking to someone very special to me. I just showed who I really am. He gave me butterflies in my stomach so many times that night. I didn't regret asking him to go there. 

Exciting Journey.

Yesterday, November 26, my friends and I went home riding a jeepney. At just one moment, the jeepney was already full because of us. We were like 20 there, all from Sayans. Chachi, Rikki Mae, Airah, Daryl, Christian, Alec, Lorrie, Eden, Argyl, Pats, Camille, Jhudz, Rexson, Shynne, Inna, Ryiel, and I can't remember the others >.<
At first, they were telling knock knock jokes.. Then we started talking about the killers here in Naic. It was soooooo creepy. Seriously. Then when we're already in Naic, the route suddenly changed!! I panicked because I don't know where I'd get off the jeepney. It was already dark that time.. What made us more scared was the topic we talked about earlier that time. Then the driver said that it will still go to San Roque, so meaning, it'll pass by our house. I was relieved that time. And the ones left with me in the jeepney told me that they'll just get off the jeep with me, since the mini bus is passing by our house. Whew. That was an experience.
To that someone who worried about me, thanks :)) though I know that you'll not be able to read this :)

Super Junior Convention :))))

I DIDN'T REGRET GOING TO THE 1ST SJCON :))) I'm so happyyyyy. So many things happened this day.
We arrived. There were few people and there wasn't a line yet. We went upstairs to start preparing for the booth. When ate Daisy came along with her sister ate Den, I was still quiet that time. But then I started talking when I was left with ate Daisy and some new friends :)
We were given a free shirt (marshalls). We also bought another ticket for freebies! Unfortunately, we weren't able to be included in the first 20 who were given a free album. But then I was able to get a free PULP mag featuring SJ and 2NE1 so it's okay!! There were a lot of freebies on different booths. There were a lot of exhibitors too, which made me hard to choose which one to buy.
The first one we saw was kuya James. We had a chance to take a picture with him and he placed his hands over my shoulder oh God I thank you. I felt butterflies on my stomach that time. He is kind ;))) AND HE LOOKS LIKE JAKE CUENCA SRSLY.
I CAN'T remember what happened next. Oh yes. They showed different videos of each member, prepared by each FC.I was a bit teary-eyed on Leeteuk's video :((( Each FC would have a game. So yeah. We weren't allowed to join :) I have no plans on joining anyway :) Next was Heechul's :((( IT MADE ME CRY :( We miss our Heenim. And it goes on....
And then there, the Mr. Simple contestants ramped on the stage. THE CHEERS AND EVERYTHING AND MY EARDRUMS ALMOST EXPLODED. But even I, was shouting and cheering for my bets. Hahaha. James Dungca, he's kind. And handsome. Lee Jaeshin. He's cute :) Raymond Anthony Perez OH MYYYYY he's so handsome, cute smile, and has a funny side. cute. Kurt Othello. He's really handsome but they said that he has an attitude. Renz Brillantes... he's not very manly so I suspect something but still I like him too because of his style and charms.
There were dance performances too! Super Simple, ELFINITY, X crew?, and a performance of singing. The two were just so great in singing and playing the guitar. I forgot their names sorry.
Every performance, there was a fanchant. And it really gave me goosebumps. There was a moment in Siwon's video wherein the audio suddenly stopped and we, ELFs, continued singing the song which is No Other. It was really awesome for me. And we are really united as one.
For the  Mr, Simple contest, there was a talent portion, and an acting portion. The acting portion was kinda corny :/ but Raymond was funny. And some lines said by them made us 'whoooaaa'.
And we were scolded too. Hihi. Marshalls. I don't wanna be one anymore next time.
We also participated a project. Uhm it's like singing FROM U by different countries. And for the Philippines, it's what Leeteuk said at the first. But we changed it because it will from ELF to Super Junior. "This song is dedicated to the world's supermen. Super Junior. My boys. My angels".
They also showed a video greeting from Steven Silva. But what made my jaw drop was that they were able to get Stacy (you know her? Uhmm.. Siwon's friend and uhm some say she got linked to him :D ) greeted us!!!! And also Amber's (fx member) sister Jackie (idk the spelling) with a llama on her hand lol :)))
And by the way, we were asked not to take a video of Stacy because she wants her privacy be kept.
I also have fancams!!! :)))))) I'll upload it soon, but not tomorrow because I have some business to attend to. Lol.
BUT SERIOUSLY. IT WAS SUCH A FUN DAY. A MEMORABLE ONE FOR ME ♥

Birthday? Naaah.

I am so happy because of my friends :))) It's my birthday today, actually. Well. Everything was quite fine today. Except for the one that happened this morning. And something made me quite disappointed today. I forgot that my birthday wasn't indicated in Facebook. Lol. So yeah. Only my relatives greeted me :((((((( Well of course, except for my classmates who greeted me in the classroom. But still. I realized that only few people remember my birthday. :(( Sad. 

Well anyway. Atleast some people cared. I appreciated it :) I LOVE YOU GUYS. This post should be a long one because it's my birthday and I have to tell a story right? But no. It ends right here.

Bonding time with AS :)

OMG this day is just so exhausting but it was absolutely fun!! We had our dance shooting for the music video we're making. When we're through with that, we had a shooting. Lol. And then we went back to our house to have a rest. We came up with an idea. We had a talk show, Shynne as the host/MC and the remaining After Shock members were left as the guests as AS itself. It was sooo funny plus we danced Gangnam Style. I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DANCE THAT. OMG I'M SORRY. I look stupid there, probably. We made another 'variety show' and it features the dorm life of After Shock. I LOOK JLHSDFLJKAHSDKFJH THERE. SWEAR. HAHAHAHA. YOU'D LAUGH A LOT. I'll post here some other time. :))))
I had a great time bonding with them but I think that that would be the last. It's really hard handling them. OH EM DID I JUST SAY THAT. Not to boast, but I was the one acting as the leader. I am always the one who organizes things. It's really hard. It's a bit of a burden to me because they weren't cooperating well, and if they had, I think it would be nothing to me. I would have even enjoyed it. :((( I've sacrificed a lot of things, too. I wish they had cooperated more :(( But, they were really great. It's just that we lack team cooperation :)))

Sorry guys. Hehe

Okaayyyyy it's really been a while since I last blogged. A lot of things happened, actually. Uhm. It's about M again lol but I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Not worth talking about. Lol. But seriously yes. Why would I? It's a bad memory, anyway.He just did it again -.- I could easily forgive someone, but would not easily forget what had happened. I 'm just thankful to my friends who are there, who supported me, Jhudz, Joma, ate Trisha, Pam, Rikki Mae, and also others who knows the story. Lol. Love ya guys! :*

-Another story-
Okay sorry. I just wanna put it up into one post. HAHAHA. So yea, we had our exams this morning and ugh. I'm 75% sure that I'll fail. :/ What more on the subjects that we'll take tomorrow? Biotech was just.. mind blowing. lol. Math.. ugh I wasn't able to answer it well because I forgot how to solve such a thing. But, still hoping that my guessing are correct.. AP! omg that was pretty hard too! MAPEH, well most of us didn't take the exam seriously, more of a speed test for us. HAHA. Not boasting because it's easy, but because.. well how do I explain this? because.. it's not really important? Well that's for PE and Health. Lol.

-Another Story- Ooops!
I've been addicted AGAIN with reading stories, they call it Wattpad stories, but it's not actually from Wattpad but from the Candy Corner. Haha. Seriously, I've read quite a lot of wonderful stories, and most of them brought me tears. My all-time favorite is She's Dating the Gangster. Other stories I really love is Tossed Coin, 548 Heartbeats, A Miracle, The Diary, 25th Hour, Three Words Eight Letters... uhm there are still more but I forgot the titles already since I've read most of the wonderful stories last summer.

I just wanna say that, I'm watching Shut Up Flower Boy Band. The pilot episode would already interest you. Yep. Hahaha. It was awesome and I think there'd be a lot of lessons from that drama, especially with friendship, since they're in a band.  And to tell you, I'm still in the first episode. LOL.

Things will never be the same again. Smile :)

August 22, 2012

I think this day would be one of my most unforgettable moment in my Senior life.
It was the day when I got really angered by my classmates. They were too much. At first I was just ignoring them, still laughing at their jokes. But that time, I just don't know what happened to me but I already got tired of those jokes, the way they bash my idols.. our idols..
They always say 'baho kpop'. It annoyed me. They always say bad things about KPOP. Ughhhh.
I sent a group message that time, just to express my anger. My classmates who received that message came asking me if I was alright. Of course I was not. I was not answering them, pretending that I wasn't hearing anything. After that, I just rested my head on my arm chair. I heard my friends saying things to the boys in our classroom. They were protecting me. Even the ones who are not KPOP fans. They were saying that they should atleast give respect to KPOP. I bursted into tears. I was probably touched by my friends protecting me. My KPOP friends, after finding out what happened, they immediately went by my side, comforting me, and they were even shouting at my classmates. My other classmates were silent that time. Only voices that were shouting can be heard. Until now, I am not yet talking to my boy classmates, ignoring them. I even removed them as my friends on Facebook.

I can't believe it..

My classmate/schoolmate back when I was still in elementary, suddenly messaged me on Facebook. I was wondering why he did that, so I asked him why. He just said that he' asking how I am now. Then he said he saw me on 7eleven.. So maybe that's the reason why, huh? Then there.. We started texting and chatting. It's good to hear that he changed his view on life. He said he was put into rehab. Hmm.. Well, I wasn't that shocked at all, since I already knew him since elementary. He was addicted to drugs maybe. So yeah. He believes in God now and considers Him as his Boss :))) I am so happy to hear that. Oh well. I'll end it here now.