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March 1, 2013

Today is the first day of March!! At ilang days na lang.. graduation na namin..at ilang days na lang magkakahiwa-hiwalay na kami. Okay so bago ako magdrama dito ng bonggang-bongga, magkekwento muna ako ng mga nangyari the past days. Dami ko atang hindi naikwento.

Eto muna.. yung sa amin ni Jerome (actually bawal na banggitin pangalan niya eh, bad word na raw yun) WALA NA. Uhm let me say na gag* siya. Lol. Ang kapal ng mukha niya grabe. Siya pa mismo nagsabi sa akin na bumabalik ang pagiging playboy niya. Sht. Tapos ngayon..ayun..meron na nga agad! Jusko. Tapos close friend pa nung ex niya ha. Grabe naman talaga. Actually mejo nakakamove on na talaga ako ngayon dahil sa friends ko na puro masasama ang sinasabi tungkol sa kanya. Ayun. Nasaktan naman talaga ako. Noon lang ako nagmahal ng ganun. Yung mahal na mahal talaga. Grabe. I trusted him, pero anong nangyari? :/ Anyway, buti na lang anjan ang friends ko para sa akin. Nagsorry na nga rin ako sa kanila kasi nagagalit pa ako sa kanila dati eh. Totoo naman pala mga sinasabi nila.. pati ni kuya. Hayyyy.

Yung overnight kina Jam! Sht sobrang saya lang talaga as in!! NagHarlem Shake kami, nagtakutan, nanuod ng Shutter pero nakatulog din naman, nanuod din ng Dead Silence, nagpillow fight!, nagpakavain, kumain ng maanghang na pancit canton, nagtsismisan, kwentuhan…DEFINE MASAYA talaga. Kasama ko nun sina Mimay, Pam, Menggay, Airah, Shynne, Joma, Marius, Ellie, Denzel, at Rexson. Dami namin noh? Sobrang saya talaga hihihi.

Research. Grabe wooo nakapagpabookbind na ako at napirmahan na rin ni Ma’am de Vera ang bookbound papers koooo! Sure graduate na ba? Yiiieee. Wala. Ang hirap kaya kasi talaga. Akala ko hindi ako aabot sa deadline kasi Tuesday eh katatapos ko lang magpaedit. Tapos at that same day, nagprint ako sa statio at nagpapirma na rin sa panelists. Oh diba bongga! The next day, umabsent ako, pumunta kami ng Recto ng mama ko para magpabookbind. Grabehan! Nakakapagod. Haha.

Yung naggGM naman. Ayun. Tinotoo niya nga yung sinabi niya. Ako na nga yung sinunod niya L User daw ako. Pero di ako nagpaapekto kasi di rin naman totoo yun :P

Habang tumatagal, lalo naming nasasabi at napapatunayang masaya kami sa piling ng bawat isa. Sa school, pag magkakasama kami, lagi kaming masaya, hagalpak sa kakatawa, nao-autistic, special kami eh! Pero pag umuuwi ng bahay, biglang nalulungkot, yung mararamdaman mo at mapapasabi ka ng, ‘sana nasa school na lang ulit ako’. Yung para bang uhaw kami sa presence ng bawat isa. WOW. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganitong saya pag kasama mga kaibigan ko, kung gano ko sila namimiss. At close na rin kasi yung boys at girls sa section naming eh, not all pero in general, yes. Masaya sila kasama eh. Hayyy. Mamimiss ko talaga ang pagiging HS student ko, lalo na ang pagiging 4H student at anak ni Ma’am Ligsa. I’ll miss everyone, seriously. 

Sana ganito ka.

1. Bigla akong kakantahan.
2. Ipagtatanggol ako sa mga kaibigan niya (if ever may umaaway man)
3. Ipaglalaban ako.
4. Isusurprise ako.
5. Sakin lang siya titingin.

All the pain

Ugh so here it goes. Naiinis lang ako. Or maybe hindi naiinis pero nagtatampo? Or something like that. I can't find the right term.
Una, hindi niya ako igu-goodluck sa interview ko sa PNU kung hindi ko pa sasabihin sa kanyang interview ko na nun. As in that very day. Hindi ko raw sinabi sa kanya na interview ko eh nasa GM ko naman yun lagi. So ano yun, di nya binabasa mga GM ko?
Yung sa DPSA, yung kasama kami sa top 30. Di niya rin ako kinongrats. Nagsabi lang siya ng 'nice'. Hayyy.
Then hanggang sa nakasama kami sa top 5. Wala pa rin. Na-feature na kami sa newspaper wala pa rin. Bakit ba siya ganyaaaan.
Eto pa.. dati pa 'to pero pinalagpas ko na lang. Yung picture niya na may kasama siyang 5 girls yun. Yung isa, nakahawak pa sa kanya. Sabi nga nina Jam sabihin ko raw yun sa kanya eh, kaso sabi ko naman, ayoko kasi maganda yung mood namin, ayoko lang masira. So that was done.
Di niya ako finofollow sa instagram. Hindi sa naghahabol ako ng followers. A BIG NO. It's just that....diba dapat i-follow niya ako? Ugh do you get me guys?
Nagla-like siya ng pictures ng ibang babae. Diba dapat... ako lang? Tae naiinis talaga ako. Ginawa ko? Gumanti ako. Naglike din ako ng pictures ni kuya Raymond. Yun nga lang, baka wala lang sa kanya.
Isa pa. Di niya pa binibigay sakin yung new number niya. Diba dapat kusa niya yun sabihin sa akin?
Tae naiiyak na ako. Di ko alam na ganito na pala karami yung 'disappointment' ko sa kanya. Ang dami kong pinalagpas. Hinahayaan ko na lang. Ganito naman talaga dapat eh? Kasi bawat pangyayaring yan, iniisip ko na maliit na bagay lang yun. Pero pag pinagsama-sama mo pala, ang dami na. Ang sakit lang </3 Para tuloy pakiramdam kong wala siyang pakelam sakin kahit sabihin niya pang meron :'((

Nakakatanga

Bakit ba napakabilis niyang sumuko? Kalalaking tao eh. Ugh. Bakit feeling ko ako lang yung lumalaban? :((Ayoko naman magmukhang tanga pagdating ng dulo. Sa totoo lang, nanghihina talaga ako ngayon. And sumasakit talaga puso ko, seriously. Ewan ko, pero baka kelangan ko na ata talaga makinig sa mga kaibigan ko. Bakit ba kasi nilalabas ko lahat ng pagmamahal ko... Bakit ba kasi :((( Nasasaktan talaga ako. Sure ba syang yun lang talaga ang dahilan? Distance? Eh kasi honestly speaking, magagawan naman talaga ng paraan yan eh. To think na pareho lang kaming taga-Naic and I doubt na buong araw ng Saturday and Sunday eh may ginagawa kami pareho. Ugh :(((
Mahal ko talaga siya. Ayoko matapos lahat 'to ng ganito lang. Pero bakit parang ako lang talaga yung lumalabaaan :((( Diba dapat pag mahal mo, kaya mo gawin lahat? Ewan ko ha. Parang nababawasan na talaga ako ng tiwala sa boys. Shet. Pare-pareho lang naman ata talaga kayo eh. Naiinis ako na nadidisappoint na ewan uuugggghhh
Nakakapagtakang di na ako umiiyak ngayon. Siguro pagod na rin ang mata ko kakaiyak sa ganitong problema.

3 days

December 23, 2012
    He went to our house with Shynne. They stayed there for like an hour or an hour and a half? maybe. lol. And yeaaah. That night was MAGICAL :'))) I'll not mention why. But :)))))))))))))))))))))) OKAY THAT'S IT.

December 25, 2012
    Okay so it was not planned. He just suddenly texted me if we could go out together. And I was super nervous when I was asking my mom if she could allow me. We watched a movie together. And... another happy night :)))

December 27, 2012
     SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED SO UNEXPECTED. I told him that it's better if we see each other for the last time before we go to Bicol. But yea, maybe it was fate. We saw each other in the bus on our way to SM Bacoor. WE RODE THE SAME BUS. He was with his brother. And yeaaaaaa. Whyyyyyyyyyyy did that happen?

That night.

December 19..
   Everything was already planned. Christian, Gary, and him went to our school. We all rode a jeepney going home. Okay to sum it all up, we went to Jollibee and he bought a Milo Blast for me :')) We went to our house and everything that happened next was just awesome. I kept on punching him, he was tickling me. We also touch each other's hands. But yeaaaaaaaa. I was just so happy that time. He also wiped my sweat with his handkerchief. IT WAS JUST SO SWEET :') He also kept on touching my face, my chin. We also pinch each other's cheeks!!

And ... for the first time... I said I love you.. personally.. sajdhflaksjdhglakjhg.

THAT WAS ONE MAGICAL NIGHT.

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED...

Let's start with ...

December 5, 2012

 Since Rikki Mae, Airah, Jhudz, and I were already done with our defense... I asked them if we could go to Jollibee and buy Milo Blast (since it's OUR favorite). Shynne went with us. And yeaaah. Something unexpected happened. I didn't know that HE'll go and celebrate with us as well. I  wasn't prepared lol. When we're about to go home, Shynne asked me if HE could accompany me home. I asked if Jhudz can go with us as well. It's okay but, JHUDZ hesitated! Then yeah, I went home riding his motor. I am really scared riding a motor because I am not used to it. But I have trust on HIM, soooo :))) I told my mom and my sister about it. 

December 6, 2012

  We went home late because we attended the talk.. He suddenly texted me and asked if he could accompany me home again riding his motor. I said yes. AND YEAAAAA :))))

December 7, 2012

  This day is something really special. HE went to school with Christian, my grade school friend. At first we were at the canteen. Then a moment later, I felt out of place because they were the only ones who were talking to each other. I walked out and went straight to our room. Luckily, my male classmates and also the guys from other sections went inside our room and they all surrounded me, and talked to me. They were even singing. Atleast they were making me happy that time. They didn't leave me. They stayed until I go home. That was sweet of them :)) Then Joma and Marius went with us to the jeepney, waited with us. When we rode the jeepney, WE sat side by side. We weren't talking to each other. On the other hand, Christian kept laughing because of my other companions who were making jokes. When we get down the jeepney already, we parted ways and it was obvious that HE's not in the mood. HE even ruined his hair. Lol. When I got home, no one was there so I thought that maybe we could talk to each other for even just a few minutes because I really felt guilty that time. I asked my mom first if it's okay to talk to him. Surprisingly, my mom agreed. It was shocking because my mom usually doesn't allow me.And it was my first time asking my mom a question like that. HE really went to our house but we just stayed outside since it would be suspicious if we were the only ones inside our house. We talked and talked and talked. It took us one hour. Then my mother and my sister even reached us talking. Lol. T WAS REALLY A MOMENT TO REMEMBER :)) For the first time, I felt comfortable talking to someone very special to me. I just showed who I really am. He gave me butterflies in my stomach so many times that night. I didn't regret asking him to go there. 

Sorry guys. Hehe

Okaayyyyy it's really been a while since I last blogged. A lot of things happened, actually. Uhm. It's about M again lol but I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Not worth talking about. Lol. But seriously yes. Why would I? It's a bad memory, anyway.He just did it again -.- I could easily forgive someone, but would not easily forget what had happened. I 'm just thankful to my friends who are there, who supported me, Jhudz, Joma, ate Trisha, Pam, Rikki Mae, and also others who knows the story. Lol. Love ya guys! :*

-Another story-
Okay sorry. I just wanna put it up into one post. HAHAHA. So yea, we had our exams this morning and ugh. I'm 75% sure that I'll fail. :/ What more on the subjects that we'll take tomorrow? Biotech was just.. mind blowing. lol. Math.. ugh I wasn't able to answer it well because I forgot how to solve such a thing. But, still hoping that my guessing are correct.. AP! omg that was pretty hard too! MAPEH, well most of us didn't take the exam seriously, more of a speed test for us. HAHA. Not boasting because it's easy, but because.. well how do I explain this? because.. it's not really important? Well that's for PE and Health. Lol.

-Another Story- Ooops!
I've been addicted AGAIN with reading stories, they call it Wattpad stories, but it's not actually from Wattpad but from the Candy Corner. Haha. Seriously, I've read quite a lot of wonderful stories, and most of them brought me tears. My all-time favorite is She's Dating the Gangster. Other stories I really love is Tossed Coin, 548 Heartbeats, A Miracle, The Diary, 25th Hour, Three Words Eight Letters... uhm there are still more but I forgot the titles already since I've read most of the wonderful stories last summer.

I just wanna say that, I'm watching Shut Up Flower Boy Band. The pilot episode would already interest you. Yep. Hahaha. It was awesome and I think there'd be a lot of lessons from that drama, especially with friendship, since they're in a band.  And to tell you, I'm still in the first episode. LOL.

Things will never be the same again. Smile :)

[TAGALOG] My dream guy?

I'll say this in tagalog so I could express myself better. If you couldn't understand, then leave my page. JOKE! :-)))

So here are the following qualities you should have to win my heart! Lol just kidding :-)))
1. Suplado- gusto ko yung suplado sa ibang girls, pero pagdating sa akin, sweet siya. Gets? Ayoko kasing malandi eh. Lol. Pero diba mas naaattract yung iba kapag suplado yung guy? Lol bahala sila.
2. Gwapo- Yiiieeee. Aminin. Sino ba naman ng ayaw ng hindi gwapong boyfriend? Lol. Minsan, ang pangit sa paningin niyo, gwapo sa akin. Minsan malakas lang talaga appeal nila, diba?
3. Loves to surprise me- Exciting kaya kapag sinusurprise ka ng taong mahal mo! Kahit simple lang. I love surprises!
4. Protective- I need someone who'd protect me. Basta alam niyo na yun okay?
5. Makulit. Kengkoy- Gusto ko ng kakulitaaaan! Makulit din ako eh :-) Masarap tumawa ng tumawa. Ayoko ng puro kadramahan ang buhay kahit minsan. Dapat makapal yung mukha! Di mahihiya sa pamilya ko.
6. Binebeybi ako- from the root word 'baby'. Haha. Tagalog spelling. Ayun. Di naman sa binebeybi talaga, pero parang ganun na rin turing sa akin. Gulo noh? HAHA. Bahala kayo. Pero di naman yung OA na alaga sa akin. Di naman ako baldado noh.
7. Marunong makiramdam-alam niya sana kung kelan ako malungkot, naiinis, nagtatampo, nagseselos.. ganun. Tapos pag alam niya na, gagawa siya ng paraan para mapasaya ako. Ang saya lang diba?
8. Supportive- kailangan ko ng supporter, lol okay? HAHAHA joke lang :-)) Kasi ako, mejo mahina ang loob minsan, kaya ayuuun. Gusto ng taong pinapalakas ang loob ko. Pero sa bagay, basta anjan siya sa tabi ko, lalakas na loob ko. Chos!
9. Mabait ang parents-ayoko ng strict eh. Mahiyain pa naman ako..
10. Sweet- ayoko ng sobrang sweet. Gusto ko lang ng pinapakilig ako paminsan-minsan. Pero mas gusto kong ako yung nagpapakilig sa kanya :-))
11. Good body- uyy di naman sa bastos ako ah? lol. Pero prefer ko yung may konting muscles :-)))
12. Marunong pumorma- Yiiieee. Gusto ko ng cool pumorma. At gusto ko yung bagay yung specs sa kanya. Choosy? Joke lang. Kahit di na yun :-))



Hindi pa final 'to ha. Things change, and my feelings change too! Lol gumaganun? Pero it doesn't necessarily mean na lahat 1-12 ay nasa iisang tao lang. Imposible kaya yun, diba? Haha. Atleast numbers 1, 2, 5, 7, 9, 12. Hehe :-)))
Di ako choosy nuh! Try niyo kaya magparamdam. Apply kayo sa akin! PM me! Lol.