August 22, 2012

I think this day would be one of my most unforgettable moment in my Senior life.
It was the day when I got really angered by my classmates. They were too much. At first I was just ignoring them, still laughing at their jokes. But that time, I just don't know what happened to me but I already got tired of those jokes, the way they bash my idols.. our idols..
They always say 'baho kpop'. It annoyed me. They always say bad things about KPOP. Ughhhh.
I sent a group message that time, just to express my anger. My classmates who received that message came asking me if I was alright. Of course I was not. I was not answering them, pretending that I wasn't hearing anything. After that, I just rested my head on my arm chair. I heard my friends saying things to the boys in our classroom. They were protecting me. Even the ones who are not KPOP fans. They were saying that they should atleast give respect to KPOP. I bursted into tears. I was probably touched by my friends protecting me. My KPOP friends, after finding out what happened, they immediately went by my side, comforting me, and they were even shouting at my classmates. My other classmates were silent that time. Only voices that were shouting can be heard. Until now, I am not yet talking to my boy classmates, ignoring them. I even removed them as my friends on Facebook.

[TAGALOG] Bakiiit?

Bakit ganun, pag stressed na ako, wala akong ibang gustong gawin kundi umiyak na lang. Ugghhh. Naiiyak ako ngayon. Una, dahil sa research. Ang dami pa naming kelangan tapusin dun. Ilang beses pa ata namin kelangan bumalik ng Amadeo. Ilang fucking excuses sa klase pa kelangan ko ha? Hirap na nga ako pag nae-excuse eh putek. Pangalawa, kelangan magmemorize sa putek na play na yan. Kelangan pa ng putek na costume. Pero dahil wala na akong damit, putek na yan, wala akong damit! bwiset kasi ha, puro dress po kasi pinapabili sa akin. letse! Kelangan ko pa mag-aral sa Biotech. Bahala na. Bagsak na kung bagsak fuckin. OH ANO?! MASAYA NA KAYONG BABAGSAK AKO NGAYON HA?! DI NA AKO MAGTATAKA KUNG BIGLA AKONG HIMATAYIN DITO DAHIL SA SOBRA SOBRANG PUTEK NA PAGOD AKO KANINA BWISET. TAGAYTAY PA BA NAMAN LETSE WALA NA NGA AKONG PERA EH. SORRY GROUPMATES KO SA RESEARCH, HINDI AKO GALIT SA INYO OKAY. FUCKING LANG TALAGA. SO AYUN. MAY BIGLA AKONG NAALALA. NADAGDAGAN NA NAMAN ANG SANDAMUNGKAL KONG PROBLEMAAAAAA. YUNG FUCKING SURVEYS PA NGA PALA. NICE DIBA? SORRY ALL CAPS NA. NAIINIS NA TALAGA AKO AYOKO NA. BAKA KONTI NA LANG EH SUMUKO NA RIN AKO.