RANT

Hi. So it's me again. Lol I forgot I have a blog like this. Anyway, good thing that my account isn't logged out yet. Anywaaaay. I just want to rant about something 'cause I can't take it anymore. I have been telling this problem to my bestfriend because it's hard to keep all your grudges.
This is a family matter. I won't be too detailed about this since this should still be a private thing lol.
I am really just good at controlling myself... and there had been instances before that already irritated me but then I decided to keep it with myself. Usually I tweet about something when I am really pissed off. But since I have my siblings on Twitter, well that kinda restricted me from doing so. And so there's this problem. And I don't wanna meddle with it anymore because it's a sensitive matter which I can't relate to it as well because I haven't experienced it myself. So I just better shut my mouth. But no matter what, it's still a problem within the family and you would be bothered by it. Well, I think my sister thinks that I don't care about her. It's just that I want to be quiet about it, and I am not much of a person who talks about emotional things with them. I am too shy comforting a person. I do it other ways. But she really pisses me off, that's why I wanna go to Manila already!!

Hayyy

Mejo nawala na rin ako sa mood kanina sa school pa lang.
Parang hindi nila ramdam na mahal ako ni Jerome, iniisip nila na hindi totoo yung nararamdaman sakin ni Jerome una kasi nga malayo siya and pangalawa dahil sa mga nakikita nila.
Hayyy. Ayun. Pero kinausap ko rin naman si Pam at hiningi ko yung opinion niya about dun.
Tapos yung classmates ko naman na boys lalo na si Ellie, lagi na lang akong tinatanong kung bakit daw si Jerome. Ano daw ba meron sya, ano raw ba nagustuhan ko sa kanya. Nakakainis sila.. Or maybe concerned lang talaga kasi hindi nga nila kilala si Jerome?

And..
T.T
Nagsigawan sina mommy at ate dito :(((
Iyak nga ako ng iyak eh. Kasi kung ano ano na hinahagis ni mommy. Buti na lang walang babasagin.
Sinasabi ni mommy na di responsableng ina ate ko. Waaaa.
Nagsigawan sila :(((

I feel so bad again :'(

I feel like crying. Ughhh. Reason? Studies. Seriously. I am really getting disappointed with myself when I get low marks. I have been thinking that my brain is slowly degrading. I don't know why. I don't feel that I am as smart now compared before. I'm really upset. What if I'll get line of 7 in the card? That would be a shame. I better start being serious with my studies now and ask help from other people so I can easily understand the lessons well. Just like in Physics, I am a bit confused. Especially in Chemistry, wherein I can't even understand a thing. I pity myself. Oh. Also Biotechnology. I get low scores on my quizzes. Wait, that's all sciences right? To tell you honestly, I never liked science. I hate myself. How can I cope up with the lessons well now? Ugghhh. Sorry teachers. Sorry mother. I don't know. Please classmates, help me. :(((( I really want to cry. I always get stressed. Huhu.