Heyyy

March 1, 2013

Today is the first day of March!! At ilang days na lang.. graduation na namin..at ilang days na lang magkakahiwa-hiwalay na kami. Okay so bago ako magdrama dito ng bonggang-bongga, magkekwento muna ako ng mga nangyari the past days. Dami ko atang hindi naikwento.

Eto muna.. yung sa amin ni Jerome (actually bawal na banggitin pangalan niya eh, bad word na raw yun) WALA NA. Uhm let me say na gag* siya. Lol. Ang kapal ng mukha niya grabe. Siya pa mismo nagsabi sa akin na bumabalik ang pagiging playboy niya. Sht. Tapos ngayon..ayun..meron na nga agad! Jusko. Tapos close friend pa nung ex niya ha. Grabe naman talaga. Actually mejo nakakamove on na talaga ako ngayon dahil sa friends ko na puro masasama ang sinasabi tungkol sa kanya. Ayun. Nasaktan naman talaga ako. Noon lang ako nagmahal ng ganun. Yung mahal na mahal talaga. Grabe. I trusted him, pero anong nangyari? :/ Anyway, buti na lang anjan ang friends ko para sa akin. Nagsorry na nga rin ako sa kanila kasi nagagalit pa ako sa kanila dati eh. Totoo naman pala mga sinasabi nila.. pati ni kuya. Hayyyy.

Yung overnight kina Jam! Sht sobrang saya lang talaga as in!! NagHarlem Shake kami, nagtakutan, nanuod ng Shutter pero nakatulog din naman, nanuod din ng Dead Silence, nagpillow fight!, nagpakavain, kumain ng maanghang na pancit canton, nagtsismisan, kwentuhan…DEFINE MASAYA talaga. Kasama ko nun sina Mimay, Pam, Menggay, Airah, Shynne, Joma, Marius, Ellie, Denzel, at Rexson. Dami namin noh? Sobrang saya talaga hihihi.

Research. Grabe wooo nakapagpabookbind na ako at napirmahan na rin ni Ma’am de Vera ang bookbound papers koooo! Sure graduate na ba? Yiiieee. Wala. Ang hirap kaya kasi talaga. Akala ko hindi ako aabot sa deadline kasi Tuesday eh katatapos ko lang magpaedit. Tapos at that same day, nagprint ako sa statio at nagpapirma na rin sa panelists. Oh diba bongga! The next day, umabsent ako, pumunta kami ng Recto ng mama ko para magpabookbind. Grabehan! Nakakapagod. Haha.

Yung naggGM naman. Ayun. Tinotoo niya nga yung sinabi niya. Ako na nga yung sinunod niya L User daw ako. Pero di ako nagpaapekto kasi di rin naman totoo yun :P

Habang tumatagal, lalo naming nasasabi at napapatunayang masaya kami sa piling ng bawat isa. Sa school, pag magkakasama kami, lagi kaming masaya, hagalpak sa kakatawa, nao-autistic, special kami eh! Pero pag umuuwi ng bahay, biglang nalulungkot, yung mararamdaman mo at mapapasabi ka ng, ‘sana nasa school na lang ulit ako’. Yung para bang uhaw kami sa presence ng bawat isa. WOW. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganitong saya pag kasama mga kaibigan ko, kung gano ko sila namimiss. At close na rin kasi yung boys at girls sa section naming eh, not all pero in general, yes. Masaya sila kasama eh. Hayyy. Mamimiss ko talaga ang pagiging HS student ko, lalo na ang pagiging 4H student at anak ni Ma’am Ligsa. I’ll miss everyone, seriously. 

Today is Thursday.

Ang lungkot ko nga ngayon tae. Shet Valentine's day ba talaga? Lol. Okay wala lang. Kasi naman.... di kami nagkita. Hayy. I have to be understanding. Eh lagi ko naman ginagawa yun.. bakit di pa ako nasanay? Pero seryoso.. naiinis ako kanina sa room pag nakakakita ako ng may hawak na roses, bear, chocolates. peste. bitter ba? Ewan ko. Nakakainis lang. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh tae.
Nagdate naman ako kasama si Mimay at Rexson. Okay na yun. Atleast diba..
Ayuuun. Si Veron. Waaa natutuwa ako sa kanya. Kahapon nga kasi diba wala ako sa school eh may pinasa silang scores. Ayun. Tinulungan ako ni Veron mag-asikaso. Tapos ayos lang sa kanya na matulog ako sa lap niya habang nilalaro niya phone ko. Nung Math din.. may kelangan na scores tapos siya gumawa nung akin. Nung kelangan din ng journal sa Math.. sasamahan niya pa ako kay Zymon para lang manghingi ng photocopy ng journal sa math waaaa. Share din kami lagi sa foods. Siya nga lang ang taong lagi kong nililibre kasi sa totoo lang, minsan lang ako manlibre ng kaibigan. Lol. Eh ewan ko, kay Veron ayos lang sakin. Kambal nga kami eh. Waaaa. I am lucky to have heeeer <3
Tapos nagsayaw nga pala kami. Jusko fail kamo. Pero sabi nila ang cute ko daw at ayos lang naman daw. Hayyy atleast positive yung comments nila. Well.. pwera nga lang sa damit kasi shorts. Ehhhhh bawal sa school. Hahaha okay nevermind. Ayun so hindi rin kami kasama sa top 3 sa DPSA huhuhu.
Mejo nagtampo din ako kay Jhudz nung uwian.. Kasi late na nun. Eh gusto ko na umuwi.. May kasama naman siya.. Ako wala.. Ehh may dumaan nang bus.. marami pa ang pwede sumakay. Eh kaso si Mary Joy yung tinitingnan niya. Hayyy. Sakit na nga ng paa ko eh. Di ako makalakad ng ayos.
Nung uwian.. naghihintay ako ng bus. Ako nakatayo kahit may pwede namang upuan. Sina Joma hindi pa umuuwi. Lumapit sila sakin. Kasama si Marius. Bakit daw wala ako sa mood. Naiiyak nga ako nun eh. Ewan ko ba kainis. Pang-asar pa tanong ni Jose Mari. Bakit daw parang walang dumadalaw sakin ngayon. Shet ang sakit kamo. Hayyyy..Bakit ba kasi ganito :'((( Para tuloy akong loveless.
Mas masaya pa ata ako ng normal na araw lang sa school kesa ngayon.
Tapos may nabasa pa akong comment dun sa isang picture niya na kung san daw date nila ni *insert name ni ex* ANG SAKIT LANG KAINIS

All the pain

Ugh so here it goes. Naiinis lang ako. Or maybe hindi naiinis pero nagtatampo? Or something like that. I can't find the right term.
Una, hindi niya ako igu-goodluck sa interview ko sa PNU kung hindi ko pa sasabihin sa kanyang interview ko na nun. As in that very day. Hindi ko raw sinabi sa kanya na interview ko eh nasa GM ko naman yun lagi. So ano yun, di nya binabasa mga GM ko?
Yung sa DPSA, yung kasama kami sa top 30. Di niya rin ako kinongrats. Nagsabi lang siya ng 'nice'. Hayyy.
Then hanggang sa nakasama kami sa top 5. Wala pa rin. Na-feature na kami sa newspaper wala pa rin. Bakit ba siya ganyaaaan.
Eto pa.. dati pa 'to pero pinalagpas ko na lang. Yung picture niya na may kasama siyang 5 girls yun. Yung isa, nakahawak pa sa kanya. Sabi nga nina Jam sabihin ko raw yun sa kanya eh, kaso sabi ko naman, ayoko kasi maganda yung mood namin, ayoko lang masira. So that was done.
Di niya ako finofollow sa instagram. Hindi sa naghahabol ako ng followers. A BIG NO. It's just that....diba dapat i-follow niya ako? Ugh do you get me guys?
Nagla-like siya ng pictures ng ibang babae. Diba dapat... ako lang? Tae naiinis talaga ako. Ginawa ko? Gumanti ako. Naglike din ako ng pictures ni kuya Raymond. Yun nga lang, baka wala lang sa kanya.
Isa pa. Di niya pa binibigay sakin yung new number niya. Diba dapat kusa niya yun sabihin sa akin?
Tae naiiyak na ako. Di ko alam na ganito na pala karami yung 'disappointment' ko sa kanya. Ang dami kong pinalagpas. Hinahayaan ko na lang. Ganito naman talaga dapat eh? Kasi bawat pangyayaring yan, iniisip ko na maliit na bagay lang yun. Pero pag pinagsama-sama mo pala, ang dami na. Ang sakit lang </3 Para tuloy pakiramdam kong wala siyang pakelam sakin kahit sabihin niya pang meron :'((

Nakakatanga

Bakit ba napakabilis niyang sumuko? Kalalaking tao eh. Ugh. Bakit feeling ko ako lang yung lumalaban? :((Ayoko naman magmukhang tanga pagdating ng dulo. Sa totoo lang, nanghihina talaga ako ngayon. And sumasakit talaga puso ko, seriously. Ewan ko, pero baka kelangan ko na ata talaga makinig sa mga kaibigan ko. Bakit ba kasi nilalabas ko lahat ng pagmamahal ko... Bakit ba kasi :((( Nasasaktan talaga ako. Sure ba syang yun lang talaga ang dahilan? Distance? Eh kasi honestly speaking, magagawan naman talaga ng paraan yan eh. To think na pareho lang kaming taga-Naic and I doubt na buong araw ng Saturday and Sunday eh may ginagawa kami pareho. Ugh :(((
Mahal ko talaga siya. Ayoko matapos lahat 'to ng ganito lang. Pero bakit parang ako lang talaga yung lumalabaaan :((( Diba dapat pag mahal mo, kaya mo gawin lahat? Ewan ko ha. Parang nababawasan na talaga ako ng tiwala sa boys. Shet. Pare-pareho lang naman ata talaga kayo eh. Naiinis ako na nadidisappoint na ewan uuugggghhh
Nakakapagtakang di na ako umiiyak ngayon. Siguro pagod na rin ang mata ko kakaiyak sa ganitong problema.

Hayyy

Mejo nawala na rin ako sa mood kanina sa school pa lang.
Parang hindi nila ramdam na mahal ako ni Jerome, iniisip nila na hindi totoo yung nararamdaman sakin ni Jerome una kasi nga malayo siya and pangalawa dahil sa mga nakikita nila.
Hayyy. Ayun. Pero kinausap ko rin naman si Pam at hiningi ko yung opinion niya about dun.
Tapos yung classmates ko naman na boys lalo na si Ellie, lagi na lang akong tinatanong kung bakit daw si Jerome. Ano daw ba meron sya, ano raw ba nagustuhan ko sa kanya. Nakakainis sila.. Or maybe concerned lang talaga kasi hindi nga nila kilala si Jerome?

And..
T.T
Nagsigawan sina mommy at ate dito :(((
Iyak nga ako ng iyak eh. Kasi kung ano ano na hinahagis ni mommy. Buti na lang walang babasagin.
Sinasabi ni mommy na di responsableng ina ate ko. Waaaa.
Nagsigawan sila :(((

I'm baaaaaaaackkkk

Ayun. Dapat kasi hindi ko na talaga 'to bubuksan ulit eh. Naiinis kasi ako. May nakaalam na ba naman ng blog na 'to. :((
Anyway, hindi na rin ako mage-english dito. Hahaha. Kainis eh.
Ang dami nang nangyariiii.
Nabuo ang Dyosasessss ♥ Ako, Veron, Jam, and Mimay.. Grade 4, Grade 5, Grade 6, and Grade 7... Rat, Tiger, Fish, and Monkey. Actually jan sa animals na yan, damay lang kami ni Veron. Hahaha.
Ayun. Mas naging close ako sa kanila plus Rexson na rin. :))
Masaya sila kasama. Share ng problems. Power trip. Ayunn.

Nagpunta ulit siya sa school nung Friday. After 22 fucking days. Grabe sobrang na-miss ko siya. Now, kelan ko kaya ulit siya makikita? Maghihintay na naman ba ako ng sobrang tagal bago ko siya makita ulit? Waaaa :'( Nakakamiss siya sobra. Naalala ko yung kinuwento sa'kin ni Pam kanina.. Sana hindi mangyari sa amin yun. Kasi yung sakanila raw ng ex niya, si Paolo, ayuun. Natutunan niya raw na totoo nga yung 'easy come, easy go'. Ang bilis daw nila nainlove sa isa't isa at ang bilis din natapos ng relasyon nila. Yung tipong sa kanya niya raw naramdaman yung sobrang kilig.. Yung 4 times daw nung kay Trent. Eh ganun din yung nararamdaman ko ngayon sa kanya. Sobrang kilig... tapos ang bilis din namin nainlove sa isa't isa. Ang dami na ring dumaan na problema. Sana naman wag siya magsawa agad. At ako rin sana. Mahal na mahal ko siya e. ♥

Bow.

3 days

December 23, 2012
    He went to our house with Shynne. They stayed there for like an hour or an hour and a half? maybe. lol. And yeaaah. That night was MAGICAL :'))) I'll not mention why. But :)))))))))))))))))))))) OKAY THAT'S IT.

December 25, 2012
    Okay so it was not planned. He just suddenly texted me if we could go out together. And I was super nervous when I was asking my mom if she could allow me. We watched a movie together. And... another happy night :)))

December 27, 2012
     SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED SO UNEXPECTED. I told him that it's better if we see each other for the last time before we go to Bicol. But yea, maybe it was fate. We saw each other in the bus on our way to SM Bacoor. WE RODE THE SAME BUS. He was with his brother. And yeaaaaaa. Whyyyyyyyyyyy did that happen?

That night.

December 19..
   Everything was already planned. Christian, Gary, and him went to our school. We all rode a jeepney going home. Okay to sum it all up, we went to Jollibee and he bought a Milo Blast for me :')) We went to our house and everything that happened next was just awesome. I kept on punching him, he was tickling me. We also touch each other's hands. But yeaaaaaaaa. I was just so happy that time. He also wiped my sweat with his handkerchief. IT WAS JUST SO SWEET :') He also kept on touching my face, my chin. We also pinch each other's cheeks!!

And ... for the first time... I said I love you.. personally.. sajdhflaksjdhglakjhg.

THAT WAS ONE MAGICAL NIGHT.

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED...

Let's start with ...

December 5, 2012

 Since Rikki Mae, Airah, Jhudz, and I were already done with our defense... I asked them if we could go to Jollibee and buy Milo Blast (since it's OUR favorite). Shynne went with us. And yeaaah. Something unexpected happened. I didn't know that HE'll go and celebrate with us as well. I  wasn't prepared lol. When we're about to go home, Shynne asked me if HE could accompany me home. I asked if Jhudz can go with us as well. It's okay but, JHUDZ hesitated! Then yeah, I went home riding his motor. I am really scared riding a motor because I am not used to it. But I have trust on HIM, soooo :))) I told my mom and my sister about it. 

December 6, 2012

  We went home late because we attended the talk.. He suddenly texted me and asked if he could accompany me home again riding his motor. I said yes. AND YEAAAAA :))))

December 7, 2012

  This day is something really special. HE went to school with Christian, my grade school friend. At first we were at the canteen. Then a moment later, I felt out of place because they were the only ones who were talking to each other. I walked out and went straight to our room. Luckily, my male classmates and also the guys from other sections went inside our room and they all surrounded me, and talked to me. They were even singing. Atleast they were making me happy that time. They didn't leave me. They stayed until I go home. That was sweet of them :)) Then Joma and Marius went with us to the jeepney, waited with us. When we rode the jeepney, WE sat side by side. We weren't talking to each other. On the other hand, Christian kept laughing because of my other companions who were making jokes. When we get down the jeepney already, we parted ways and it was obvious that HE's not in the mood. HE even ruined his hair. Lol. When I got home, no one was there so I thought that maybe we could talk to each other for even just a few minutes because I really felt guilty that time. I asked my mom first if it's okay to talk to him. Surprisingly, my mom agreed. It was shocking because my mom usually doesn't allow me.And it was my first time asking my mom a question like that. HE really went to our house but we just stayed outside since it would be suspicious if we were the only ones inside our house. We talked and talked and talked. It took us one hour. Then my mother and my sister even reached us talking. Lol. T WAS REALLY A MOMENT TO REMEMBER :)) For the first time, I felt comfortable talking to someone very special to me. I just showed who I really am. He gave me butterflies in my stomach so many times that night. I didn't regret asking him to go there. 

Exciting Journey.

Yesterday, November 26, my friends and I went home riding a jeepney. At just one moment, the jeepney was already full because of us. We were like 20 there, all from Sayans. Chachi, Rikki Mae, Airah, Daryl, Christian, Alec, Lorrie, Eden, Argyl, Pats, Camille, Jhudz, Rexson, Shynne, Inna, Ryiel, and I can't remember the others >.<
At first, they were telling knock knock jokes.. Then we started talking about the killers here in Naic. It was soooooo creepy. Seriously. Then when we're already in Naic, the route suddenly changed!! I panicked because I don't know where I'd get off the jeepney. It was already dark that time.. What made us more scared was the topic we talked about earlier that time. Then the driver said that it will still go to San Roque, so meaning, it'll pass by our house. I was relieved that time. And the ones left with me in the jeepney told me that they'll just get off the jeep with me, since the mini bus is passing by our house. Whew. That was an experience.
To that someone who worried about me, thanks :)) though I know that you'll not be able to read this :)

November 18, 2012

Hmm. Wait. Something doesn't seem right.
It goes like this..
My friend has a crush on someone. Something more than just a crush. Maybe love? Haha.
And her crush... now has a crush on me. That guy doesn't know that my friend likes him. I feel guilty for that because he's her crush and that person likes me. Awkward. :(( But what if........ NO NO NO. I shouldn't let something happen right? We'll just be ... friends right? Friends? And besides.. I'd be really shy towards his family because it seems like his family is really close to her ex-girlfriend. How lucky. I'D REALLY REALLY BE SHY... Unless they like me too. I don't want them comparing us. OH WAIT WHAT AM I EVEN THINKING. IT'S NOT YET COMING TO THAT POINT lol.
Anyway.. should I lie to myself? I always feel happy whenever I talk to him (chat and text). He always makes me laugh and smile. I also feel comfortable talking to him though we just met each other 3 days ago. Lol. And I always think of him. I'm always day dreaming about him. Sucks. BOO. And of course I didn't forget about the agreement my friends and I made. He asked me if I'd allow him to court me.. As an answer, I said we should be friends first. It's good if we start as friends right? And I want him to know more about me first before courting me because he might regret his plan. I don't want that to happen. And I want to know more about him as well.
Let's just see what would happen next.
Anyway, if you're curious if he's good looking.. Well, at first I said, NO or maybe not that good looking. Lol. But when we started to get close to each other, it doesn't matter to me anymore. I don't know whyyyyy :')