Nakakatanga

Bakit ba napakabilis niyang sumuko? Kalalaking tao eh. Ugh. Bakit feeling ko ako lang yung lumalaban? :((Ayoko naman magmukhang tanga pagdating ng dulo. Sa totoo lang, nanghihina talaga ako ngayon. And sumasakit talaga puso ko, seriously. Ewan ko, pero baka kelangan ko na ata talaga makinig sa mga kaibigan ko. Bakit ba kasi nilalabas ko lahat ng pagmamahal ko... Bakit ba kasi :((( Nasasaktan talaga ako. Sure ba syang yun lang talaga ang dahilan? Distance? Eh kasi honestly speaking, magagawan naman talaga ng paraan yan eh. To think na pareho lang kaming taga-Naic and I doubt na buong araw ng Saturday and Sunday eh may ginagawa kami pareho. Ugh :(((
Mahal ko talaga siya. Ayoko matapos lahat 'to ng ganito lang. Pero bakit parang ako lang talaga yung lumalabaaan :((( Diba dapat pag mahal mo, kaya mo gawin lahat? Ewan ko ha. Parang nababawasan na talaga ako ng tiwala sa boys. Shet. Pare-pareho lang naman ata talaga kayo eh. Naiinis ako na nadidisappoint na ewan uuugggghhh
Nakakapagtakang di na ako umiiyak ngayon. Siguro pagod na rin ang mata ko kakaiyak sa ganitong problema.

Hayyy

Mejo nawala na rin ako sa mood kanina sa school pa lang.
Parang hindi nila ramdam na mahal ako ni Jerome, iniisip nila na hindi totoo yung nararamdaman sakin ni Jerome una kasi nga malayo siya and pangalawa dahil sa mga nakikita nila.
Hayyy. Ayun. Pero kinausap ko rin naman si Pam at hiningi ko yung opinion niya about dun.
Tapos yung classmates ko naman na boys lalo na si Ellie, lagi na lang akong tinatanong kung bakit daw si Jerome. Ano daw ba meron sya, ano raw ba nagustuhan ko sa kanya. Nakakainis sila.. Or maybe concerned lang talaga kasi hindi nga nila kilala si Jerome?

And..
T.T
Nagsigawan sina mommy at ate dito :(((
Iyak nga ako ng iyak eh. Kasi kung ano ano na hinahagis ni mommy. Buti na lang walang babasagin.
Sinasabi ni mommy na di responsableng ina ate ko. Waaaa.
Nagsigawan sila :(((

Something awesome.

Ayuuuun. I feel so blessed first of all, dahil nakasama ang team namin sa DPSA sa top 30!!!! Over 1,600 entries ata yun. Omg. Pero yun nga lang, I think Darlene deserves it the most. Siya kasi yung pinakanaghirap ehh. Ayun.
Second, because of God!! NagYFC gathering kami ngayon eh. Actually every Thursday siya :)))) I feel really blessed. Thanks Lord!! :))) YOU ARE THE BEST!

I'm baaaaaaaackkkk

Ayun. Dapat kasi hindi ko na talaga 'to bubuksan ulit eh. Naiinis kasi ako. May nakaalam na ba naman ng blog na 'to. :((
Anyway, hindi na rin ako mage-english dito. Hahaha. Kainis eh.
Ang dami nang nangyariiii.
Nabuo ang Dyosasessss ♥ Ako, Veron, Jam, and Mimay.. Grade 4, Grade 5, Grade 6, and Grade 7... Rat, Tiger, Fish, and Monkey. Actually jan sa animals na yan, damay lang kami ni Veron. Hahaha.
Ayun. Mas naging close ako sa kanila plus Rexson na rin. :))
Masaya sila kasama. Share ng problems. Power trip. Ayunn.

Nagpunta ulit siya sa school nung Friday. After 22 fucking days. Grabe sobrang na-miss ko siya. Now, kelan ko kaya ulit siya makikita? Maghihintay na naman ba ako ng sobrang tagal bago ko siya makita ulit? Waaaa :'( Nakakamiss siya sobra. Naalala ko yung kinuwento sa'kin ni Pam kanina.. Sana hindi mangyari sa amin yun. Kasi yung sakanila raw ng ex niya, si Paolo, ayuun. Natutunan niya raw na totoo nga yung 'easy come, easy go'. Ang bilis daw nila nainlove sa isa't isa at ang bilis din natapos ng relasyon nila. Yung tipong sa kanya niya raw naramdaman yung sobrang kilig.. Yung 4 times daw nung kay Trent. Eh ganun din yung nararamdaman ko ngayon sa kanya. Sobrang kilig... tapos ang bilis din namin nainlove sa isa't isa. Ang dami na ring dumaan na problema. Sana naman wag siya magsawa agad. At ako rin sana. Mahal na mahal ko siya e. ♥

Bow.

3 days

December 23, 2012
    He went to our house with Shynne. They stayed there for like an hour or an hour and a half? maybe. lol. And yeaaah. That night was MAGICAL :'))) I'll not mention why. But :)))))))))))))))))))))) OKAY THAT'S IT.

December 25, 2012
    Okay so it was not planned. He just suddenly texted me if we could go out together. And I was super nervous when I was asking my mom if she could allow me. We watched a movie together. And... another happy night :)))

December 27, 2012
     SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED SO UNEXPECTED. I told him that it's better if we see each other for the last time before we go to Bicol. But yea, maybe it was fate. We saw each other in the bus on our way to SM Bacoor. WE RODE THE SAME BUS. He was with his brother. And yeaaaaaa. Whyyyyyyyyyyy did that happen?

That night.

December 19..
   Everything was already planned. Christian, Gary, and him went to our school. We all rode a jeepney going home. Okay to sum it all up, we went to Jollibee and he bought a Milo Blast for me :')) We went to our house and everything that happened next was just awesome. I kept on punching him, he was tickling me. We also touch each other's hands. But yeaaaaaaaa. I was just so happy that time. He also wiped my sweat with his handkerchief. IT WAS JUST SO SWEET :') He also kept on touching my face, my chin. We also pinch each other's cheeks!!

And ... for the first time... I said I love you.. personally.. sajdhflaksjdhglakjhg.

THAT WAS ONE MAGICAL NIGHT.

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED...

Let's start with ...

December 5, 2012

 Since Rikki Mae, Airah, Jhudz, and I were already done with our defense... I asked them if we could go to Jollibee and buy Milo Blast (since it's OUR favorite). Shynne went with us. And yeaaah. Something unexpected happened. I didn't know that HE'll go and celebrate with us as well. I  wasn't prepared lol. When we're about to go home, Shynne asked me if HE could accompany me home. I asked if Jhudz can go with us as well. It's okay but, JHUDZ hesitated! Then yeah, I went home riding his motor. I am really scared riding a motor because I am not used to it. But I have trust on HIM, soooo :))) I told my mom and my sister about it. 

December 6, 2012

  We went home late because we attended the talk.. He suddenly texted me and asked if he could accompany me home again riding his motor. I said yes. AND YEAAAAA :))))

December 7, 2012

  This day is something really special. HE went to school with Christian, my grade school friend. At first we were at the canteen. Then a moment later, I felt out of place because they were the only ones who were talking to each other. I walked out and went straight to our room. Luckily, my male classmates and also the guys from other sections went inside our room and they all surrounded me, and talked to me. They were even singing. Atleast they were making me happy that time. They didn't leave me. They stayed until I go home. That was sweet of them :)) Then Joma and Marius went with us to the jeepney, waited with us. When we rode the jeepney, WE sat side by side. We weren't talking to each other. On the other hand, Christian kept laughing because of my other companions who were making jokes. When we get down the jeepney already, we parted ways and it was obvious that HE's not in the mood. HE even ruined his hair. Lol. When I got home, no one was there so I thought that maybe we could talk to each other for even just a few minutes because I really felt guilty that time. I asked my mom first if it's okay to talk to him. Surprisingly, my mom agreed. It was shocking because my mom usually doesn't allow me.And it was my first time asking my mom a question like that. HE really went to our house but we just stayed outside since it would be suspicious if we were the only ones inside our house. We talked and talked and talked. It took us one hour. Then my mother and my sister even reached us talking. Lol. T WAS REALLY A MOMENT TO REMEMBER :)) For the first time, I felt comfortable talking to someone very special to me. I just showed who I really am. He gave me butterflies in my stomach so many times that night. I didn't regret asking him to go there.